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THE DAY!!

2010-05-10T17:01:00.004+08:00

The day i most worried has finally come..today's your 1st day to your college...all those days before I've been worried that you'll change or your heart will be taken away by the others college guy...last night we even argued...but at last we've been through that and you made me got confident on myself n also no need to worried so much...I'm happy dear...=)

But the things that I'll be worry now is will anyone in your college try to ruin our relationship...i don't hope that will happen...n i hope that you won't being psycho by those guys too...cause i believe in you that you know to discover who are reliable n who're not...so don't let me down my dear...no matter what I'll support you...hope everything will go smoothly even in our relationship...I'll always stand on your side...

Just now you told me that you get to be the queen in your group that just been elected to perform for your group n needs to do cat walk few hours earlier...that one makes me even more worry...cause that will just let other people to get to know who are you n rumors will come to you...

I also hope that they won't have rumors about us when they get to see...cause now our status are different if you know what i mean..hope those rumors or gossips won't spoiled us...i always have confident on you...but i don't have it on myself...sorry...

She's Gone...T.T

2010-05-04T14:14:00.002+08:00

Today she's going to Labuan...i'm so sad cause i'm unable to send her to the port...T.T wish she doesn't have to go...going there only makes me worry more about her...but since she has made her decision all i can do is to support and respect her decision...hope everything will be fine over there..." i miss you so much...wish to see you now...T.T "

Moody...

2010-04-01T05:40:00.002+08:00

I was so sad to heard that you're going out with another guy for a movie...how can i control myself...please tell me since i'm so easy to get jealous...do you think i really don't mind...infact i do mind...but i promised i won't be...i know this things had make us argue a lots of time...i don't want this to keep going on too...but this can't stop without both of us put effort on it....one hand can't clap...i can't do it alone...if we wanna stop this...both of us needs also need to do something about it...if going on like that i don't know how long can i hold on...i'm sorry to say like that...but i just can't tell you...hope you'll understand after reading this...i think everyone will feel the same if knowing that their love one going out with another guy or girl...

WTF Is Wrong With It??

2010-02-12T16:26:00.002+08:00

i have my feelings when i was born into this world...and i can't control or stop these feelings...please don't go around and tell gossips to other people about me...sure i do have a crush on someone...so what??i can't control it...our past is the past....so forget bout it...i don't give a fuck for what you've been doing...when it ends...the one that hurt most is just you...think about that...sure we still can be friend...but i don't need or want a friend that tells everyone about my things...i HATE that kind of friends...don't be so selfish please...

Late Sunday Night...

2010-02-07T23:17:00.005+08:00

Can't believe I'm back to my blog again...where I can tell everyone about my secret here...secrets that I'm afraid and shy to tell...

it's been almost a week that i can't stop thinking and miss her so...i only been telling some of you and only few of you know about it...maybe not everything...but this feeling i have with her really makes me felt shy and sometimes happy too...there are things that many people sure disagree with my decision...but love is blind...i can't help it...i don't really know whether she got the feeling on me or not...but i care about her very much...these few days she was quite busy, exhausted and unhappy...I've tried my best to cheer her up...hope it'll makes her feel better...i don't think there's many hope on this relationship...even though i get to be with her...sure won't last long and also many people would talk things behind us...so i rather chose not to tell her or do anything...all i can do is just cheer her up and be there with her when she's sad or anything...just like brother and sister..=) cheer up my little sister...even though you don't know how much i care and treat you like my sister...i don't need anything from you, but just a smile from you when we meet...=)

i'll always be there for you my sister or the one that i care most..."can't really us love"...cause i'm confused about this things too...@.@ take care....=)

Interact's Installation Night 08.08.09

2009-08-09T22:16:00.003+08:00

hello everyone, sorry for late updating...recently din hav special things to tell...

until....LAST NIGHT'S INTERACT INSTALLATION...had fun you guys...but it seems like everyone on our table also very quite...the most quite 1 is my partner...HAHA....don't tell everyone your name unless those who know and also went there then sure will know..HAHA...hope you guys had fun too...heard from B said the dishes on last night's more delicious thn last 2 years' leo installation night's dishes...erm...leo...hope this time you won't let us down...haha...XD

after the dinner me, B and saimon went to TEXAS having my 1st SHISHA...DAMN HIGH..now i understand why on the moment the plane almost crushing down wil release a oxygen mask for us to use them...=) the mask is for you to take in more of the oxygen then it will make u higher and forgot or got the guts to face what is going to happen to you...HAHA...XD next time if this accident happened on you....please take in as much oxygen as you can...=)

i guess that's all..our photographer didn't upload last night's pictures...HEY PLEASE UPLOAD AND TAG FOR US...HAHA...XP thanks!

Celebration For My Belated Brithday

2009-07-12T00:28:00.002+08:00

today is our school's BAZAAR...i saw many ex-all saints...gland to met with you guys again...=) thanks for saimon, timothy, azshafiq, hazwan, david and his DJs' birthday song too...i appreciate that very much...but i also have to say sorry to you guys...the song just start playing thn i'm gone far away...and when the song ends..i'm at u guys side again...sorry...>.<

i've celebrate my birthday at DAMAI UPPER STAR...thanks for all of you guy's wishes and present..love you guys so much...hope next time we'll be celebrate together again..^^ unfortunately tere is someone didn't go...and also 1 of you came late..but it's ok..don't feel sad or anything...i know u guys gt the heart then it's fine...=) after the dinner and drinking...we went to CYBER-X for game...it was so fun..but that time i'm a little tipsy so can't concentrate on it...for those who i didn't invite i'm sorry...i'll try my best to invite u all next time..and for those who can't come on time or can't come..it's ok...there will be another time for u guys to celebrate with me again...XD

guess that's for today...hope i can update my blog faster so for my followers no need to wait such long time for new posting...=)

Be Strong My Friend

2009-07-08T22:31:00.002+08:00

be strong my friend...

last time you've been strong enough..but why now you've change by the problem that you are facing??be faithful...everything will be just fine..we will stil care for you and be there when you needed us..unless for those who are taking advantage...if you know what i mean...YOU MUST BE STRONG ENOUGH TO FACE THIS PROBLEM...that's the way out..and you have to face and walk it through by yourself...this time no one can help you anymore....all we can do is just stand by you...hope you'll let it go and face it earlier...

Had Fun!!

2009-07-08T18:43:00.002+08:00

today me and some of my classmate just went to a EXIBITION OF SCIENCE AND TECHNOLOGY...we had won 3 hamper...i think we had won the most prizes or as hamper..^^ hope next time we still got chance to go again...hehe...

brithday almost reach...hope everyone can make it to my celebration..=) especially for 1 of the girl...you know who you are..this morning just promised me...please don't break your promise...^^ that day everyone should be very tired...so i don't expect you guys to go home late...if you guys feeling tired those...can just go home straight away..health is more important...XP

bazaar also getting near as well...for those who don't know when...it's on saturday same day of my celebration...=) luckily that day me and my friends no need to do our shift..because of...(ADA YA) wakaka....XP please come to visit my stall...just in front of the hall...^^ we need to earn 3000 ringgit per class...TT hard to achieve that...so please support me class...XD

2nd July 2008

2009-07-02T21:22:00.003+08:00

just now finally readded you on MSN, FB and FS... hope you won't ignore my adding...=) i don't know how were you doing in the past few weeks or should i say month..hope you are doing fine on living, exam result also on your academic...

this saturday i'll be going to school with my mother...FOR MY REPORT CARD...don't know why...but i always feel happy and very urgent want my mother to meet with my form teacher...maybe my mother is not very strict to me...hope she won't saw this posting then change the way she treat me...=p

tomorrow will be going to "METRO POOL" with some of my friends...but before that, something need to be done 1st...if you are close to me or hearing many rumors ...you probably will know what happened...hope it's nothing...don't hope to repeat the past...=)

birthday is coming...but i'm broke again...T.T hope till that time got people sponsor me..."DAD!!"XD wakaka... sure on that day everyone will be very tired after bazaar and also dancing...but what i hope most is my 兄弟姐妹 will attend...please attend...and for that GIRL i invite but don't really wanna go...you better give me a good reason why aren't you attending...XP

28th of June 2009

2009-06-28T18:53:00.004+08:00

hey there...sorry to all of my follower...since long time ago i've updated my blog..the reason for that is nothing special have come on to me for the past week...hope you guys understand..=)

just now i just went out with 2 of my 姐妹..because yesterday we have planned to go for movie...'TRANSFORMER" but it doesn't go well...we planned to take dinner together after the movie...but unfortunately we didn't..i don't get to know the reason..because some one was arguing on that moment..you both know who you are..better behave yourself and treat each other better...XD the movie was quite funny and really exiting...won't regret seeing it...for those who haven't watch please faster get on yr shoe and go to your nearest cinema for it..LOL...XP

days without you goes better...if you r my follower and likes to read what i wrote...i just wanna say sorry for deleting you on my FS, FB and also MSN's friends' list...if you got anything wanna ask or need my help...just add me back..i won't ignore your request...after all we had told each other after the last few arguement... can't be couple doesn't mean our friendship end on that moment...=) hope you'll understand what i mean...

17th of June 2009

2009-06-17T21:50:00.003+08:00

finally i can no need to think of you everyday...i've put down our things...but the shocking rumours from my friends is sawing u holding hands with another guy on the 2nd holiday week...which has just past...if u really have loving anyone you can tell me straight away...no need to make us misunderstand so many things..you know what i mean...anyway...hope you'll be happy with him...and also hope he'll love and care bout you more than i did...=)

school reopen...have to wake up like usual...that's 5.30 in the morning...urghh...didn't get enough sleep at all..and now i'm sick...cough, soar throat and also cathcing slu...T.T please b well soon..the sooner, the better...T.T but 1 thing i'm gland to go to school....chit chatting with my friends..unfortunately my result on the mid-year exam is not so good at all...so far i just pass 3 subject...hope i can pass half of the amount of subjects that i take..=)

i've just exchanged my mobilephone with my dad...nw i'm using SAMSUNGI900 A.K.A OMNIA...=) more like it than my old HTC DAIMOND....but my father is going to sell it to his friend...tomorrow stil need to take the DAIMOND to my uncle's place to reboot it to the newest version of the original HTC firmware...

2009-06-11T23:45:00.003+08:00

11st of June

2009-06-11T23:14:00.003+08:00

today i'm very happy...recieving my 1st present...the watch that i like TITUS...from my dear cousin..."THANK YOU" XD last nitez i already went to 1BORNEO and saw that watch...cnt imagine just after 1 day i can have that watch..i really love it very much...hope next time can share it with you guys...=)

my floating day stil continue like last few days...but luckily tomorrow i'm going for my blood test...^^ maybe after that i can know what are really happening to me...=) hope nothing else when the report has been given to me...

hey...sorry for my friends that tomorrow are going to K.K HALL for basketball...i can't go because of my blood test..next time we can play together again...hope will be soon...XP

9th of June 2009

2009-06-09T14:27:00.003+08:00

after last night's chatting...finally know the truth...i must move on...i had deleted you in my msn contact, friendster and also in facebook...this way i can totally forget bout you...even those image of your's in my phone i also had deleted...hope i can really forget you in a short term...don't feel suprise after saw yr friendster and facebook's friend list less 1 person dy...hope you really can feel happy without my disturbing...we are stil best friend...but not the close type...anything need my help stil can find me...hope in future we don't have to argue anymore...and also both of us will be happy...

already few days i feel like i'm in a dream...floating feeling...really feels creepy...why i will have this feeling...tomorrow stil need to wake up early and go for driving's "bengkel"...can i stand it..few hour's in the room..would i have enough sleep...don't wish to have those floating feelings again...even now when i'm typing also feel like i'm in a dream....last night just went to see my childhood doctor..."Dr.Chan" she told me it's ok to have this feel...maybe it's because of my height...so when i'm lying o sitting for too long time...suddenly wanna wake up o stand up the blood can't slow that fast to my brain...that's why wil feel dizzy and some time's will have seen black out vision...that feeling is very scary...i'm scare 1 day really black out and faint down....that time i really don't know what will happen...please don't let me experience that feeling again....i don't hope to faint down then the next thing i can't see the world anymore....

8th of June 2009

2009-06-08T10:07:00.002+08:00

last night can't sleep at all...y do i have to keep thinking that much...already told myself to forget bout her...really can't help it...can anyone else help me to clear my mind...now not suffer thinking, but suffer can't sleep too...if this continue on, i'm sure i'll be crazy in a short term...

yesterday just went out with my sisters..."姐妹" it was a fun and happy out going...when will us going out again my sisters...going out with you all really can release my stress and made me think less bout her...i can stil remember the moment we shout out what we sing at K-BOX...it was so happy to shout out...! but yesterday less 1 of our sister...if she attend too...thn it's a perfect sisters out going...=) hope she'll join us shortly...

so fast 1 week has already past....and i feel nothing at all...don't feel getting enough rest or had enough fun...after this week i'll have to wake up early to go to school again...thn i'll b waiting for your car to past by every morning again...when can i just let go and forget bout you...maybe what you told me earlier were right...maybe we should not have met each other is better...now i really understand why many people can't let go things easily...maybe human are like that...i reather born as a stupid animal...no need to think so much...and don't have the feeling so deep inside...

3rd of June 2009

2009-06-03T23:53:00.000+08:00

today i've been thinking of you too much...i wrote tis new posting, won't know you got read or see it or not....but i hope when you saw this won't feel sorry for me or what ever...

i know that you are starting to let go bout our things...so as you are doing it, i should move on too...these kind of feeling really makes me suffer and worry bout you...i don't know how to stop it...but i'll try to...maybe now you already found another guy can love or give you what you want better than i can...but i really wish that guy will treat you better than me and also love you more than i do...although i don't really know are you in love with another guy...but i'll try my best to carry on and forget the past's realationship between us...i'm still loving you very much...1 thing i know and for sure, if we continue on be together..both of us won't be happy...i wish you could be happier rather than being sad with me...i'll still care bout you...but not lik last time i did...take care yrself...anythings happen you still can call o text this best freind of your's...i don't really know what possition am i deep inside your heart..but you'll always be the 1 i care in my heart...

beside's that...some of my freinds already know what happens to the twins...i'm also suffering the same thing as they're suffering...their parents think that i'm the one who bring them into this mess...but i'm not the one....please anyone could help me out??i don't wanna get involve on this, i don't even know how to face their parents anymore...i really don't wanna continue on like that...i wish to be happy like last time...play with their father...smile with their mother...and even go travel together...

i really don't understand why do bad things will come all together in the same time....GOD...please help me out..i'm suffering can't be with the 1 i love and even hang out with my best friends like usually we did..i wish this is only a dream...please wake me up...if u saw i'm sleeping on my bed....NOW! NOW! PLEASE HELP ME OUT! I NEED TO OUT OF THIS HORRIBLE DREAM! T.T

my left and right hand's finger nails...

2009-06-02T22:33:00.000+08:00

2nd of June 2009

2009-06-02T21:17:00.001+08:00

it has been so long since i update my blog...school holiday starts...bt i feel nothing at all...is it been a lot of things been going on??need to find it out quick...

since it's a holiday...i'm oso goin to be crazy like usual...i've painted my nails BLACK...long time didn't do that....try to act like my favourite idol....MARILYN MANSON...but not too much...many people said he looks scary....so i also don't wanna copy too much of he's style....=)

31th i just went out with her again...we watched movie lik usual..."Night At The Museum part 2" it's quite funny...but i don't think she enjoy it much...maybe also not in a good mood....wish next time we go out, she'll enjoy herself...

lookin foward to the camp...on tis FRI 5th - SUN 7th of June...but there is something i need to do on FRI....so need to confirm with my 2 other friends..."THE TWINS" it's about my driving license..so anoyed by that...

today feeling moody...and get angry easily...feel very sorry to those who has just scold or react with such bad temper...hope tomorrow will be better...

that's it for today....hope i'll have the mood to update my blog soon...sorry for those who are waitting for my update...

1st of May 2009...

2009-05-01T23:04:00.000+08:00

this morning just went to cyber with my friends..playing games really can makes me release my stress and from missing YOU...but i think 1 of my friend feelin not too happy...don't know wad happened...he always just keep it into himself...that only will make us worry bout him...hope 1 day he will tell us if anythings happened to him...that way we can try to help him out also no nid to worry so much and don't even know what to worry bout...today most happiest things is YOU finally message me and also you've read my blog...hope the poem that i've wrote can makes u feel happy....great to see the wall between us finally broke again...BEST FRIEND FOREVER....i'll be there when you are in need...hope you can be happy ALWAYS and even more until FOREVER...=)

30th April 2009...

2009-04-30T21:24:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...this is my 1st posting...hope it won't hurt o insult other people or my frenz...if i did...sorry for that..

this few days i've been feeling down...without you with me i really feel depressed...but that's the way for both of us...please don't feel the same...bt no matter what..i'll still be happy and in the same time oso be there for you...don't forgot we r still BestFriend and that's forever...like what you said...that's not a label...IT'S A PROMISE...i hope that won't change..=)

if you read my blog...please continue message wit me....i dnt want to have a wall between us...TT

hope you'll understand....and also sorry for the last message that i've sent..if it does hurts you...sorry my dear friend...i don't mean that..but it's how i care for u...and i hope u can understand that clearly...for knowing me such long time...=) please smile always like the pic that i've just upload...\/ peace XD